Being single

This seems to be an issue that can't be laid to rest. Last week I was asked by a very funny doctor if "I had a man." When I said no, he was quite aghast. He insisted to know, why someone like me didn't have a man. My response was, 1. I am very picky, 2. I didn't know anyone right now that I was interested in, 3. I was quite busy and didn't feel like making time for someone else (who would probably be needy and of the jealous type). Throughout the day, he wouldn't let it drop, but he didn't piss me off too much, just because I thought he was really funny and we were talking in Spanish and no one else in the room understood us, except the patient, who was "under."

Still, I agree with my best friends that most of the time I love being single. I wish every one else would be ok with it as well. It is when you are constantly being asked why that it begins to be a burden and you wish it wasn't so. And when all of your friends also have significant others, it begins to be quite a drag because you are constantly being asked, "can I bring ___" or "is this a girls' night"? I can't help it if my closest friends are girls, but just because I am planning something, it does not mean it is a girls only event. But my friends are pretty good about it, so I rarely feel the need to tell them, "you will be fine if you don't spend every waking second with him."

Another problem with being single, is that it is strange to be the single girl hanging out with the boys (at least more than 4 of them). It is ok to be someone's girlfriend and hanging out with the boys. It's just awkward for me and I wish it weren't. It just seems that they are wondering which one of them you are checking out.

So I had an encounter with the most recent boy cast away from my non-existant love life. We got to hang out for a friend's birthday and it was fun. I still have a little something, but nothing that isn't far from being over. I did however run to him and make him make a guy quit bothering me. It is nice to have guy friend to protect you when you don't feel like dealing with it. In retrospect, I could have taken care of myself, but I was a bit lazy and found the easy way out. I also realized that sometimes I just don't put myself out there. And I mean that in an non-slutty way. I just am not as outgoing, which is hard for some people to believe, but it is true. Am I going to change? I don't know if I want to. I like being single, but sometimes, it would be nice to have someone always here just in case and jsut for me.