Deep thoughts

or lack of.

As I was reading my best friend's blog I realized that I don't think about God or faith the way I used to. I don't think about how much I miss going to church or doing all those good things for other people. I don't volunteer as much as I used to and I don't help people like I used to. I gave a tour today to applicants and realized that I am not the same person that I was when they accepted me. I just feel that instead of holding on to those things that made me special and unique enough to get accepted to a good medical school are all not as important in my life as they used to be. I knew that I would never be as smart as the people here, but I convienced myself that I belonged because I possessed traits that were equally important. But now, its like I have myself be consumed by petty things.