Almost home

five days until I can set foot in my house. and these will be the longest five days of my life. it is cold and i have lots of things to do before i go home. what i don't seem to understand is why, when home is so close (and one of my closest friends came to see me on Saturday), i am still so sad. sad enough that twice today i have been close to tears and i have only been awake for less than 3 hours. but, life keeps going and school doesn't slow down. must get to class and learn so i don't fail another test. can't fail this class, because then i don't get to go home for the spring/summer break.