why we do the things we do

after talking to one of my classmates tonight, I realized that as girls we do lots of stupid things, just because. We say that we don't want anything in the long run, but that is a bunch of crap. We always expect at least a little attention and if we don't get it we get really upset; even though we just said we didn't expect anything in return.

So why is it that we want the attention from the boys that are least likely to give it to us and the ones that we really don't need it from. When is it that we reach our very own epiphanies? How do we finally convience ourselves that we need to move on? When do we finally get the message, "he is just not that into you."?

If I see that right now, how long can this last? If it is my choice to stay smitten w/ this boy, then how do I make the choice to move on and stick to it? How can i do this w/o thinking about some other stupid boy? How can I do this for me? If I want to move on, how do I convience myself that this is the best option in the end? How do I say to myself that he will never see how good I am for him? How can I stop whatever we had and call it by what it was -- a misunderstanding of feelings and emotions and interests and chemistry. nothing more.