three's company?

i just moved into a new apartment with one of my old roommates (who, btw, i adore and am so excited things worked out the way they did). i love my new place and its comfy feeling. i like having my door open when I am home and cooking in my kitchen and sitting down at my table (all of which I had not done in months). this, of course, means that i no longer have two roommates. it was a very dramatic "break up."

point being, i have been very blessed in the fact that i have some of the best friends in the entire world. and since high school i have learned more and more about friendship and love and patience and trust. i have learned to let go and let people into my life. and there always seemed to be three of us and it was good. but now that this last triplet split, i looked around at my classmates and realized that we were not the only apt of three that failed to remain together. quite an extraordinary number of apts have shifted and i began to wonder if we just got too much of each other too fast.

so there is this delicate balance between too much and too little. since leaving texas i have been very afraid of losing my friends from home. but they have been patient with me and put up with me falling off the face of the earth. and we can just pick up where we left off. as if the time that had passed and the changes that we have made in our lives will "sync" within a few moments of spending time together again. i have grown and changed and my friends have grown and changed, but it all makes sense. it fits. and if it doesn't, most of the time, it doesn't matter because in the end we have each other.

and as friendships around me change, i just hope to remain the kind of friend my friends liked when they decided to keep me around. and three is not an odd number, its two plus a bonus, a solid tripod to support whatever struggles the world may bring a group of friends. ok, time for bed. that's what happens when you have too much time on your hands.